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i have been struggleing with my weight for most of my life. it got to the point that i was ready to give up but something inside said don't there i a skinnier person that wants to escape on day and can't wait for that day to happen. i have barracaded myself in my house and am to embarrassed to go out looking the way i do and if i feel like that i could only imagine what others think. my hubby and i are not getting along and that is my fault because i have shut him out i feel he tell me he loves...

it all started back when i was in my teen years when i was raped and abused by an ex-boyfriend i was skinny back then and turned to food as a quick fix. i went from 115 at age 15 to 180bls by the time i was 20 and started eating to get fat so he would leave me alone. finally he did and i tryed to lose weight and did alot of different diets and failed at them my last option then was to try to starve myself what a big mistake i was getting bigger instead of smaller and didn't understand what was happening....