my story continue

i have been struggleing with my weight for most of my life. it got to the point that i was ready to give up but something inside said don't there i a skinnier person that wants to escape on day and can't wait for that day to happen. i have barracaded myself in my house and am to embarrassed to go out looking the way i do and if i feel like that i could only imagine what others think. my hubby and i are not getting along and that is my fault because i have shut him out i feel he tell me he loves me beacause thats what i want to here and always thinks he is embarassed to be with me beause of my size. I am very insecure and self concious of how i look that i shut out everyone. i don't go to my kids school programs because my kids get made fun of because there mother is so big and that really hurts. it gets really frusterating going out to get cloths nothing fits. the only thing that fits me and i can wear are my pj and have been wearing them for years now i can't wait to lose all this weight and be able to buy cloths that i like and that look good on me. i am so ready for this and so excited but yet really scared and nervious i am looking forward to untrapping this beautiful person that is locked inside this disgusting body


thanks for listening to me bable on

Michelle :ebike: