This time of year weighs down on my heart. I'm not here enough, not enough to show my appreciation, not enough to give back. I've gained so much...I've lost so much. I should be here to share....right? I've gained some true friends through this experinence...some still stay in contact, some slip through my mind occasionally, but there are all of you...all of you new to this and looking for us, those that have been there. I'm two years out, no saint, no one I would place your bets on, but I have...